whole day of sports.

woke up at 10.
ate some stuff for breakfast.
showered.
packed my stuff and left the house by 11:27am.
ended up getting to BH by 12:13pm.

went to the medical centre lounge where christofer thought it'd be fun to jump out and scare me, which was an absolute fail.

so, we ate lunch in the "new" boxhill centro. totally unfulfilling lunch. pizza. joy.

there goes $2.30 down the drain.

then we walked to aqualink. met with the 2G group and intro'd christofer to them.
they seemed to <3 him. i mean, who doesn't.

anyway, the futsal games were pretty good. the teams were even since neither teams scored any goals, and one team was forced to leave by default time out.
after 2 hours of epic futsal, i hung around to started to play epic badminton with some cgs boys + plc girls.

boys (in no particular order)
- christofer
- edi
- farn
- michael looi
- augustine
- hungy
- ..jacky

i was there from 12:50pm until 5:40pm.
by the end of that, i was well and truly dead. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH ENERGY IS REQUIRED FOR 4 HOURS OF FULL-ON SPORTS?!

edi dropped me home, and right now i'm so so tired that i want to stop writing this blog. i can't even move my legs properly.................................................................................
this is the most tired i've ever been, believe it or not, i have a headache.

ENOUGH BLOG

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- bloggerliciously dead


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sometimes, just sometimes.

well, i'm in a better mood now/today.

and i was on the toilet before, and i realised..

sometimes it doesn't matter when you first met someone
sometimes it doesn't matter what you first said to someone
sometimes it doesn't matter who said what first
all that matters, is that, that someone will help you through life.

and if you didn't get it, you can substitute the word "someone" with "that friend"

anyway, yesterday. went to MC with some CGS boys to watch transformers II.
awesomely epic movie, even though a lot of reviewers rate the movie between 1 and 1.5 stars. i guess they were looking more for storyline that action.
but oh well.
i <3 transformers

jonlee's guess who + hans + farn + dean

augustine bought me the tiny frozen raspberry just to be funny. YES HE IS THAT RICH.

get the lame joke? i'm small and hence need small things. ._.
and geez, this is the most html formatting i've done on a blog entry for a while.

oh well, fun.

anyway, tomorrow. hopefully i'll be able to go out.

__ edit:
on a side note,
i just finished watching another episode of shameless, on sbs.
it is probably the best series i have seen on tv.
i absolutely love it's mediocrity and the way it is all pulled together with some underlying message that really hits home.
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wasted grieving.

i have no family except for simon.

fucking wasted grieving. over the years i have been trying to keep my family together.

it's just been one big waste of time and effort

my life is not cracked up to what you might think.

yes, i am happy when i'm outside.
but as i mentioned earlier, it's compensation for the oppression i live under.

just got told off for no reason.
just got told off because i don't work.
just got told off for trying to keep the family together.
just got told off for looking at him while he was speaking.
just got told off for failing life in general.

my life is fucked, believe it or not.






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futsal. happy birthday scheung hlam.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMUEL CHEUNG AND HERRICK LAM.

okay, pretty eventful day.
was meant to wake up at 10 so i could meet with hans @ the pines.
but i misread my phone and woke up at 9 instead...

so so stoned.

but but but but BUT THEN, i got changed, went ot the pines and went to buy a cake for the event later in the day.

my mum was raging @ me the whole day because i didn't clean up my room. i mean woopdidoo, i'm a guy, i'm not naturally as clean as a female...but for those guys who ARE neat, do not take any offence pleass.. no kill me pls.

anyway, got picked up by scheung later in the day and went down to vermonth south sportslink. i have to admit, it is pretty pro place. looks very modern, and the warehouse it's in is pretty big.
although the only thing that it doesn't have is nets between the courts and hence the ball will be whacking a fair few people in the head if we're not careful.

after the epic game between the manu-tops, the whites and the multicoloured freaks, we went to eat cake. the cake i bought earlier.
i brought plates and serviettes and stuff..EXCEPT FOR THE KNIFE -_-.

so had to wait for the guy to finish and borrow a knife off them. and for some reason, the guys were complaining that the cake was low fat.
WOOPDIDOO, it was the only one there, and it's just a ploy to get you to buy it, they don't have normal fat, or high fat cakes there anyway.

but all in all, was a great day. sang happy bday to scheung and herrick. :D



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- PUMP-ED


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youth group. tomorrow.

bubble busters
terrorizing trainwrecks
yeasty yellowfaces

i mean, why can't shuffle groups make their names more original.
i think 90% of shuffle groups use the word "hardstyle" in their name.

oh well.

youth group was awesome.
powerful night.

anyway.
tomorrow i gotta get up a bit early. go to the pines buy some cakes for scheung and hlam.

then go futsal.
DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNnn gonna be fun.
and i get to exercise too.

anyway, will be taking pics hopefully.
erm.
atm, just webcamming with viviprawn.
chatting with jonnychan and shah fariq.
WAS going to chat with jonlee. except he ditched me for a formal -_-
nguntux is there too.

okay, i got nothing else to say.


omgomgogmgomgogmogmgogmogm, it's 12:08am.
happy bupday to sam cheung and herrick lam <3

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my mood:
- sleepyyyyyyyy


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1 year.

so, depending on when i decide to start my countdown, it's been a year.

yes, another year of my life has passed. not much different.
okay well, a lot has happened in the past year, and the year before that and so on so forth.

EXCEPT.

this past year has been recorded on this blog.
a whole year, on this blog.

had my ups and downs, but mostly ups.

and i also realised why i'm so "happy" all the time.
it's because i'm compensating for the depression i am faced with when i get home.

anyway, this is a good post. so enough of the emoing.

so yes, whoever has been reading, has read or heard of this blog. read it all, and you can live my life as i have done for the past year.

currently chatting to
viv, belle, fariq, ngunseng, jacky and kai.

listening to: Final Fantasy - Main Theme

going to: do english homework

okay,

HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO MY BLOG.

326 posts non-inclusive.
not bad hay.

i like this blog. :)

AND

something stupid happened @ bh today.
was taking the bus to tuition, and the bus clearly said "295" on the front of it.
BUT the stupid ass bus driver took a different route so everyone on the bus was like "WDFKENT?"
so we all got off on the next bus stop which was like 1km from boxhill..so i had to catch a tram all the way back, walk all the way back to the bus station and wait for the next bus.
saw dan lim, said bye.
went to tuition. pretty much died.
got home. dinner YUMMEH~
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- t-800 gonna keel me. RUNNNNNNNNNN~

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alienation again. relaxation finally.

i don't think i've ever posted 2 rantblogs in a row, but here it is.

i get home to see simon with his report card. it's not the best...okay, it's not good either.

so my dad comes home, tells him to bring it out, and lectures him.
meanwhile i'm in the other room watching some bull riding show on ten HD.

after the lecture, my dad walks into the same room as i, asks me if i wanted to eat anything in a normal tone.

i say no. he wants to watch TV, so i give him the remote and leave.
i try to make conversation and he plays along a little.

so then the night is fine. until just then.
i have the heater on because:
a) melbourne is cold
b) it's about 5 degrees without the heater on
c) i'm wearing my long pants
d) the ducted heating doesn't do anything
e) i want to be warm

and he storms in
"when do you get your results?"
me: er, august.
-silence-

"turn that heater off"
me: okay.
-turns heater off-
"you know blah blah blah"
-stares-
"blah blah blah"
-stares again-
"blah blah blah blah"
-stares-
"gets cold blah blah blah turn off"

did i mention he was the one staring at me.
i think he's got issues. his eyes turn black when he's angry.
oh well, another alienation. i'm already alienated enough.
once i get my car, i can bet you i won't be hanging around here when things get messy.
which will lead onto one thing. complete alienation.
i know that at one point it will get to the stage where all we say is "hi, how was your day?" kind of chit chat.
at the moment, do i care?
no. i WANT it to be like that actually.
but speaking through common sense, ofcourse i don't want that to happen.

anyway.

relaxtion.
methods sac..no, just no.

got home.
chillaxed.
i think i got some english hwk. rawr~
that's gonna suck.

oh well.
holidays coming soon.

exciting and fun filled.

note dp and the files he is sending.
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my mood:
- kinda pissed off, but i'll deal with it


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tiring.

it's after exams.
i get that.

BUT OH WAIT, I GOT A LAME ASS METHODS SAC TOMORROW.

seriously, cgs fails in making the students feel relaxed in any way.
the timing of assessment tasks is at the worst possible time.

right after exams. -sigh-
i think they got issues. because when they were in year 12, they had SACs right after THEIR exams, and hence they are passing on the malice to us.

my teacher doesn't help us in class anyway.

*hand goes up*
teacher: yes thomas.
thomas: how do you do this?
teacher: let me see...
*walks over*
teacher: ah, yes.
*walks over to whiteboard*
*scribbles out the equation while mumbling*
*gets to the answer*
teacher: did you get that?
thomas: erwtf. no.
*teacher walks off*

and i'm being serious, i swear so much in methods class because the teacher's incompetence makes me so angry. i have to resort to bryan yat, who is extremely smart. he has taught me a lot more than carter has...

yes, i know i'm meant to be working it out on my own, and i have for the most part. but calculus is just a fag.

after tomorrow, gonna be chill.
doesn't really matter how well i go since i won't be getting another report until the end of the year, which is my ENTER.

/endrant

thx viv for linking me to all that korean music
thx jenn for making awkward conversation
thx christofer for giving me hope
and also thx to tux, he's helped me out so much in regards to methods.

<333

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my mood:
- sleepyyyyy


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sunday.

not much.
webcammed with a few peoples.
spend literally the whole weekend doing methods and chemistry homework.


i get distracted so easily.
-sigh-

time for bed.

5 more days till holidays.

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my mood:
- wan die? yes wan die. :)

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reminisce.

i was surfing youtube.
a few videos came up that had really nice settings, places i've never been before.

so then i decided it was time to visit the "Tom's Trip To Malaysia" video.

damn. even the description box took me back.

thanks for making this the best christmas everyone."

i truly believed that back then. and i still do now.
except, that feeling of energy and hype of being in a diff country makes everything so exciting.

the chance to meet so many great people who welcomed me made me feel special.

looking back on that, i realised it's not everyday you meet someone and they act as though they've known you their whole lives.

that happened in malaysia for me.

the weather, the temperature, the people, the unity.

just brings me back to a place where i never want to leave.

malaysia really gave me shots of adrenaline. seeing new things, meeting new people.

and the issue here, is that if i go back, will those people still be the same? i do chat with them online, but there's every chance they will have changed.
(there's one i know who hasn't changed. stayed caring and kind since i met him)

ah, damn. malaysia would be the life for me.

i'm pretty sure of this.

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my mood:
- day dreaming


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afterparty.

went to fight night @ new hope church.
it is MASSIVE.

anyway, afterparty apartment:

reception:








the boys~

good one.
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my mood:
- heppy.

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blank.

my mind is void of anything to write. so i'll just write what i'm doing atm.

listening to: Paul Van Dyk - For An Angel
chatting to: shah fariq, viviprawn, nguntuckseng and iqbal
currently doing: chemistry
going to do: methods

brain status: good; i had a 2 hour nap.

btw, i planned to have a ONE hour nap. EVERY single time, it's doubled, or tripled.
my alarm doesn't work...

Jai Ho = worst alarm ever.

shah fariq called me just before. had a 10 minute chat. :)


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my mood:
- blank


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sleepy, almost end of term too.

totally cannot be bothered doing any work.
for the past 3 nights i have done 0% work apart from tuition; which doesn't count.

WHY ARE THE HOLIDAYS SO CLOSE YET SO FAR?

i'm so sleepy too.
these past few days reallllllly tiring.
i even slept at 11:23 last night, and i woke up dead.

yarghhh, feel kinda deadish.
i don't feel like bloggering anymore. i'm party pooped.

i need the weekend to recover...

and i got a lot of work to do over the weekend too.

school sucks, as if not give us a break. the teachers aren't complaining coz they're not under stress.
and that's what i hate, teachers can be so insensitive about things, they just teach teach teach and when exam period comes, they just holiday.
then once we're done with them, they just go back to teach teach teaching.

i am i, that is, richard love richard...or whatever bs richard is on about.

signing out-

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my mood:
- dead


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neglection. formal. afterparty.

okay well the formal is over.
that was pretty cool with cherise.

and the after party is over.
that was the highlight of the night i think.

just everything that happened was awesome. meeting new peoples, and saying hi to long lost friends.

partybus was dangerously dangerous. and the seats were just.. -sigh-..we got jibbed.
taxis off were awesome.
driver gave me 30c discount because of my childish innocence, i believe.

drank a bit, got drunk a bit; no i'm kidding.
i got a bit woosy in the head. and apparently, according to augustine i said some weird shiznit.
amy was just like..lmao..and she sat on my hand and the funny stuff ensued.
janice was LOLPHALAMAO.
i mean, everyone was.
winston dancing on the couches.

anyway, i'm home now. or was. edi's mum took me home. awesomeness to her.

so yeah. i'm kinda in the "holiday" mood already, and hence i have not posted anything here for 2 days...i believe.

so here i am. happily typing away my life onto this internet webpage interface thingy.

hope this lasts..and i really hope this internet doesn't go self aware then take over the world.
because if that happens, a very large poop stain will appear in my pants.

not that long is it? :o

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my mood:
- gonna pack some..sports stuff.. :o


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freedom.

english oral.
good.

done.

went to bh, bought some stuff to eat. waited for tux. looked around for some ties. he didn't buy.

went home. showered. got dressed. went to bus stop. met the boys @ westfield.

TERMINATOR : SALVATION

epic.

tired now.
12:27am.

wtf.

off to bed.

goodnight. :)


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my mood:
- bleh'd

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ENGLISH ORAL.

COMPLETE
as at 12:08 AM.

and it's 12:29.

i haven't been doing anything.

WHAT AM I DOING?!
i should be asleep.

tata~
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my mood:
- killjoy. lol gonna be stoned tomorrow.


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battle out your heart.

a lot of people may be emo due to exams and all, so to all those people who did well, don't post stuff up saying you've done so well, and it was so easy.

i am being a hypocrite here, because i was excited about ONE question.
that's it.

overall, i'm not sure.

time will tell.

now, the rest of the day i will be eating my sorrows away. and then finsih my english oral.

-sigh-

VCE is cruel.

oh well, at least it's over. after this week, i'm partying 24/7. :)

will update later tonight.

NO MORE PRESSURE.
WOOT~



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my mood:
- shellow but rellow


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exam in 15 hours.

so accounting.
gonna be fun because i'm so underprepared.
well, i feel like it anyway.

chemistry. also feel so underprepared.

also need to find a nice tie and shoes that actually fit me.

-sigh-

so pov, i've resorted to the clear plastic paper files as my "pencil case"

joy joy joy.

accounting is so hard.
geez, why.

hopefully they don't pull out too many tricks. because i'm confident i can nail all the theory.
and posting to journals..and whatnot..

hopefully i don't end up dying with cross-references.

it's really hard on my part since i've been so lazy all semester.

BAH, anyway i'm off.

goodnight, and goodluck to all


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my mood:
- deded

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studies @ hans' house.

well, it was agreed we'd get to hans' house at 10.
i got up at 9:45.
didn't leave the house until 10:55.
since my mum is so noob, she took like 10 minutes to find out how to adjust the seats and whatever else with her car.

so then off i was.
i thought tucks was going to be there, but no.

i walked by and hans' uncle was there, told hans to come down. YES~
infiltrating the base - completed

then i sort of waltzed in since it was the first time inside the base.

chucked my bag of goodies on the table. was greeted by hans' aunty.
decided to bum on his computer watching all the retarded stuff he has.

then we started the practice exam.

wow, i got owned. just barely an 80%. but still an increase.
hans owned it. -sigh- i sux.

then tux came shortly after, and we sort of looked @ more retarded stuff on hans' laptop. had lunchy.
awesome spaghetti by his aunty.

then chem discussion.
that was definitely a big help.

then kinda asked mr.wilko for some chem help, but he wasn't in.

then hans felt sick.
i got picked up. then stuff.

yeah, did half an accounting paper. lost 1 mark..ARGH
silly silly mistakes.

anyway, i might make some snacks now. :)

can you spot the members of ho clan? :o


ho kit
ho ming
ho leong
ho sing

g'night

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my mood:
- exams gonna rape me :)


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the days have gone by...

and i feel as though i haven't accomplished anything.
or have i?

not sure. all the information i've been trying to take on, has sort of collapsed before my very own eyes.

okay just had a brain wave. will write out my mistakes in a little book.

anyway, my day. boring. spent the whole day doing practice exams.
then got into a small cafuffle with augustine, who is meant to be my bro.
oh well, people have fights all the time.
told myself i'd chill. i have to. i can't go around hating people. @_@

anyshayz. i'm gonna go write out my mistakes. coz i don't have enough time to finish another one of these chem pracs.
then maybe i'll move onto accounting mistakes.

YEAH~




i'm off~
sfa. hello. :)

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my mood:
- `


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look forward to what's ahead. always.

exams are really close.
and i'm not panicking.
is it because i don't give a ck anymore?

oh well.
i'm doing my daily dose of revision.
and tomorrow marks the mega revision before the storm.

hans might be there. i dunno.
jonchan might be there. i dunno.

peoples migrating to boxhill library, but i'll be happy in the pines library.

gonna go Resonate as a final de-stresser before exams.
because the more i think about something, the more chance there is of me just snapping then the whole thing just breaks down.

i can't do something for really long without pausing, i'd just die.

e.g.

================ = = = = = === = = = = = == = == = = = ==

it breaks off because i ceebs after that point

but if i got a de-stresser:

=========== / ============/ =============== / =========== /

i believe i will retain the info better. :)

but with that aside, i'm getting REALLY tired.
managed to type up my design brief tonight. (Y)

goodnight all. take care


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my mood:
- swine fluish actually.. O_O

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BLACKOUT.

so, blackout.
about 8pm ~ 9:30pm.

there goes my study time. @_@
but i'm really sleepy anyway.
will sleep soon.

will get up, find out what i got for accounting.
come back, start chemistry work long into the night.

i'm going to fall sick on friday.
then go resonate to ease up my stress.

STUDIESSSSSSSSSSS ALL SATURDAYYYYYYYY.

oh, english oral.
i gotta get working on that.

ah crap.


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my mood:
- bogged down.


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gay day today okay.

examinations is a week.
screwed. no.
chemistry, i got a lot to work on, but it's manageable.

accounting. had a practice exam today. seemed relatively easy, but it was long.

this week, has been extremely prementrual syndrome-like.

i've been bagging the crap out of people just because of the way they "speak" on msn.

and then i've been keeping my anger inside when stuff happens; particularly stuff i don't like happening.

like stealing my phone. only a few people i can trust with it, and trust them not to do anything stupid with it.

then when someone isn't really reacting the way i want them to in real life or on msn, i end up chucking an internal spaz. then i cringe as my hate increases.

then i cool down, forget about how the hate makes me feel emo, and the cycles starts again.

school is okay. as exams are coming up, i feel like skipping a few days in the lead up to the exams.

dad raged at me because i didn't tell him i got 89% average for methods SAC. it wasn't that hard for anyone anyway, but i just didn't around to tell him.

this anger is making me feel like studying. i shall exploit it.

~ formal money due tomorrow
~ 2 hours of tuition tomorrow

fark..

edit:
there always IS someone there looking out for you.

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my mood:
- extremely suicidal


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